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Lost my little Angel

Flowerlily - 03:47pm Feb 17, 2012 EST

Hi All,

As I am writing this I am in tears! I lost my little girl at 21 weeks because of a short cervix. I had a previous pregnancy before with no problems. I am devastated! I don't know how to be strong. It is the hardest thing for a woman to go through. I held her little body for as long as could she was so beautiful. I feel like it was my fault. I don't know what to do.



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stacyat - Feb 17, 2012 9:30 pm (#1 Total: 6)  

Mom to Emilyn and Hailey (our 20 week angels) and Elim (our 38 week, full term miracle)!  

Hello and welcome to share, I am so sorry that the loss of your sweet girl is what brought you to us. I lost my twin girls after I went into preterm labor just shy of 21 weeks a little over two years ago. I said I didn't blame myself but deep down I really did. It's taken me a long time but I finally don't feel guilt most of the time. Please try not to feel guilty, you would have done everything in your power if it meant saving your sweet girl. I would love to know her name if you don't mind sharing it. Many many hugs to you.
Stacy

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    Akeelah's Mommy - Feb 18, 2012 12:32 am (#2 Total: 6)  

    A moment in our arms, a lifetime in our hearts.  

    Welcome to Share. I am so very sorry to hear of the loss of your sweet daughter. You're right, this is the most difficult journey any mommy can venture down. It's been over three years since I held my daughter, and what I can promise you, is that though we can not hold them in our arms as we so desperately want to do, in time you will find beautiful ways to hold your daughter in your heart and in your family. It's no consolation, at the same time, it does bring it's moments of peace.

    I hope you will continue to share about your daughter. I've found writing and keeping a blog here to be more healing than I ever could have imagined.

    Lauren

    liz loschinskey - Feb 19, 2012 12:37 am (#3 Total: 6)  

    I love my kids!  

    Hi! Welcome to share. I'm very sorry to hear of your sweet tiny girl. I lost my son at 24 weeks. Please know you are in the right place. Come here and laugh,cry,vent,anything, at anytime...We are here.

    Love and Light, Liz

    lvazquez - Feb 19, 2012 12:56 am (#4 Total: 6)  

    Mom to Donovyn (32 weeker), Tristyn (34 weeker), and Naethyn (30 weeker born sleeping)  

    Welcome to Share. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little girl. It's the hardest thing a parent can endure. I am sorry for the reason that brought you to Share, but I hope that this site can offer more words of comfort and support to you. I'm an angel mom to a 30-weeker almost three years ago now. Some days are still very much a struggle, but with each day, I gain more perspective and hope.

    Wishing you strength,

    Lindsay

    Flowerlily - Feb 19, 2012 2:27 pm (#5 Total: 6)  

     

    Replying to: stacyat (Feb 17, 2012 9:30 pm)
    Hello and welcome to share, I am so sorry that the loss of your sweet girl is what brought you...

    Hi Stacyat,

    My little girl's name was Adilene wich means Angel's sight. She was 13oz and had my nose she was the most beautiful little person! Doctors told me it was because of my short cervix don't really understand, but I am feeling as if I am in a nightmare. It was just so recent. I pray to God to help me everyday!

    stacyat - Feb 20, 2012 5:16 pm (#6 Total: 6)  

    Mom to Emilyn and Hailey (our 20 week angels) and Elim (our 38 week, full term miracle)!  

    What a beautiful name! So sweet! My girls were both 13 oz as well, so tiny but so perfect! I'm so sorry, that must be so confusing to have things go fine with your first pregnancy and then so drastically wrong with the second. You've definitely found the place to come to for support to carry you through, it sure did that for me and still does it. Hugs!
    Stacy



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