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lvazquez
May 16, 2011 08:32pm (EST)

Julie, I know it's hard when the one thing you want to happen isn't happening. Just keep believing that it will and try to enjoy the now.

Take care,

Lindsay

Jackie G
May 16, 2011 09:01pm (EST)

Sometimes the answers just aren't clear. I so wish that you had success by now. I can tell how much you want it and you're a great mom so you deserve it. I can't offer much other than good wishes and prayers - so at least know those are headed your way.

hugs,
Jackie

ehbeagle
May 16, 2011 11:09pm (EST)

I could have written this post myself. I, too, grew up in church and have a relationship with God. I also was pissed off when he "took" my baby. I really didn't understand why after the struggle I had to concieve, he would let me get so close to my dream just to take it all away. I also felt guilty for being mad at God. Ultimately I was in so much pain. I prayed, I read, I sould searched...I did it all. What I finally realized is that it is OK to be mad with God, it is OK to question God. Take Job for example. He didn't do anything wrong, yet he suffered, and he was mad and he questioned God. It took a while, but I finally made my peace with God. I may never know

ehbeagle
May 16, 2011 11:13pm (EST)

why, but I do believe he was there with me through it all. He did not choose pain and suffering for us. He created a paradise, we choose something else.

One verse I clung to during that time is Psalms 37:4-8 NKJV, "Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart." I do believe that He wants us to have it all.

I hope this helps. If not, please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. God bless,

ELizabeth

Angel Love
May 17, 2011 12:54am (EST)

There are so many times when I wish I had just a peek at that Master Plan that God has.... I know that when things happen that I will be so thankful for the timing of it all, but it's so hard to just stop and trust.... Hugs to you as you go through these difficult days.

Tracy

Arnara
May 17, 2011 02:30pm (EST)

Julie:

I also grew up in very Catholic Church....and had my issues with God.... but now I think all this waiting is like a test of faith.... and what is so hard to get you value more.... I got so angry with some women, even friends, that cry because they were pregnant again, I just wanted to slap them, but I have to keep my worried face for them.... Be a little selfish and pamper yourself, you deserve it, as I said your time will come, just keep hoping, and don't lose faith, that is the last and only thing we have..... You know, the first name of Valentina is Ana, because of saint Ana, Virgin Mary's mother, she wait for 20 years! Imagine that, 20 years to conceive, and she had Virgin Mary..... I don't mean or even expect to have saint children, but the meaning of this is that great things take more time to get.....
big hug

Lorena

*fingers crossed*
May 17, 2011 07:02pm (EST)

Thanks guys for all the love and support. I know I can always count on you all to lift me up when I feel like I've hit rock bottom. I love you guys!!

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