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DISGUSTED
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Sep 14, 2011 10:23pm (EST)
This is what I watched on the news tonight.
http://www.wpxi.com/news/29184259/detail.html
Sad story of premature twins, get out of the nicu, are home for a week and the torture begins. The boy and girl are 7wks old and have broken bones through out their bodies due to excessive force from the parents.
WTF is wrong with people? Who does that?
Top story of the same newscast, 4 yr old beaten so badly he dies. Beaten because he didn't listen. HE'S 4, DUDE! You F'in idiot, I'd like to beat the shit out of you until you just died.
http://www.wpxi.com/news/29180030/detail.html
I'm repulsed by the 6 oclock news.
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (2) | Permalink
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SU
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Sep 14, 2011 06:07pm (EST)
Thank you Jen for changing my mind on going to SU. I had no intentions on going until I talked to you! I'm so excited to meet you, I feel like we've known eachother for years!
I'm extremely excited to be going to SU. I was going to wait and post this after I got my flights situated, but I'm so tickled to be coming I had to SHARE.
This will be the first time I've ever been away from my daughter for an extended period of time. First time in 2 years. I'm slightly nervous about that. Speaking of, Tori will be 2 in 8 days. Very exciting. Birthday theme, Elmo. Elmo cake, plates, napkins, table clothes, and pizza and mac and cheese. Her favorites. She will be wearing her famous bright red Elmo overalls and Elmo slippers. All Elmo, all the time in our house. My husband went as far as special ordering some rock star guitar elmo that won't be in stores until November, so it will be a late birthday, early Christmas present.
I'm really, really looking forward to meeting you guys. You've read (seen) me at my worst and best. I'ma bitch, eh? *teethy smile*
I'm stalling on getting photos ready for the remembrance ceremony. No one has seen my son except for immediate family at the hospital. The pictures from the hospital do not do him justice. He looks sick. Blue. Tiny. I will share him with you.
Baby steps, Liz.
Love and Light,
Liz
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (5) | Permalink
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HOORAY FOR MOD!
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Sep 02, 2011 04:13pm (EST)
Ha! I just realized in the past 5 minutes Share has an instant messaging system....Thanks Stacy!
MOD still amazes me, I just got my Sears gift card from my MOD walk. YaY!
Also, the new $39 dollar, 39 week campaign!
Marchforbabies.org/toriandmikey
Love and Light,
Liz
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (4) | Permalink
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MY, HOW TIME FLIES...
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Aug 30, 2011 07:43pm (EST)
I keep getting choked up for no reason today. With all of the trials and tribs I've been through when it comes to babies, I can truley say I'm blessed. I know my son, who would be 8 years old, starting school, being a kid is looking down on us and smiling. I know he would be so proud of his little sister who is almost 2, now. Two? This time is 2009, I knew I was having a horrible pregnancy. I knew, my child wasn't growing. I knew my child was struggling. I knew, I had to hand EVERYTHING over to God and continue on with my non-growing belly. Boy, am I glad I did. This girl is the strongest little girl I've ever met. I'm not just saying that because she is my daughter. 1lb, 1oz. 11 inches long. How can such a tiny package be the largest gift I have ever been givin? How can this tiny, petite, little girl have no issues concerning her health, at this point in time? How can this tiny, little person be so smart and actually know what's going on in her tiny, little world? How is her imagination so in tact that she has tea parties with the dog and tickle-me-Elmo? I will never understand how I was blessed to have one here on earth and one in heaven? How did my Father, my God, know which very tiny child of mine I could keep and which one He could take? I'm not dwelling, I'm not depressed about this fact...I'm curious.
Now to why I'm really here. This past weekend My husband and I took our daughter to the Pittsburgh Zoo to not only see the animals but to also meet up with her NICU BFF and family! It was absolutely amazing to see the two girls side by side. We will call the other little girl Kenzie. Tori came into the NICU last week of September and Kenzie came in the first week of October. Kenzie weighed in at 1lb 5oz, Tori 1lb1oz. These two babies were in the NICU for the longest amount of time, the two sickest, smallest, anything you can think of...We, meaning Mike and I and Kenzie's parents west through it all. We made true friends out of this family. I hope someday, Kenzie and Tori will be Penpals or very good friends, to say the least. I say penpals because Kenzi's mom got life flighted into Pittsburgh from a surrounding state due to a level 111NICU.
When families go through something like this and come out on the other end of it with two healthy, let alone living kids it's a true miracle! Some pictures of our miracles. Tori is in the plaid skirt outfit.
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (4) | Permalink
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TORI AND MIKEY!
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Apr 20, 2011 02:08pm (EST)
www.marchforbabies.org/toriandmikey
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (1) | Permalink
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LIFE IS GOOD! (UPDATE)
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Apr 18, 2011 09:45pm (EST)
Here we are.
I am good. I've fully accepted my insides will not allow me to have another child.
I am extremely blessed with two. One in heaven, one on my lap.
I have to remind myself Mikey is looking down on his little sister, guiding her through her tiny little life. Her ups and downs, sickness's, hospitalizations, crawling, walking, laughing.
Our March for Babies is coming up in 2 weeks. Look for us! Team Tori and Mikey is making a name for themselves. We've got shirts, banners, hats and serious DONATIONS! (The most obnoxious, bright, limegreen, shirts, banners and hats) Why, you ask? We will be the boldest team of 30+ walkers in bright green in the mix of thousands of other walkers.
My daughter is a true blessing. 17ounces, 11inches long, eyes still sealed, thighs so tiny my wedding bands fit all the way up to her hip. This my friends, is a serious blessing.
Now? Nearly 20 months, 16lb's&6oz's, 27 1/2", bright eyes wide, starting tumble tots(baby gymnastics) next week, babyandme storytime at the library tomorrow, physically and developmentally on target.
We are blessed.
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (2) | Permalink
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Sep 01, 2010 03:26am (EST)
I don't know what word to use.
I'm not obsessed. I do get depressed. I do get sad. I do want to cry sometimes for no reason....which could be depressed and obsessed.
I know what it is. It's pity parties for me. 3 people invited, me, myself and I. My own party to pity myself over something that happened in 2003. C'mon Liz...You are better than this. You used to be the funnest person to hang out with, always giving the good advice, the logical advice, the advice that normally got people through thier day.
I can't seem to do this for myself. How odd is that? I used to have a fun life. I used to laugh. I've just got myself to smile at strangers again. It's to the point it is interfering with my marriage. I'd rather stab my eyes out than try and have a conversation about this in fear of being told to get over it or stop dwelling on the past by his family members. Life would be so much different had Mikey stuck with me back then.
I'm not even a nice person anymore. heh. I'm disrespectful, sometimes out right mean. I don't have many friends, I really don't like people--I hate people that don't understand. That's alot of people.
I used to be the nicest person, the guy that makes everyone laugh. What happened to her? She's underground with her son who's on top of my mom? Yes, my son is buried on top of my mother.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not like this all the time. I don't sit at my computer at 11.14pm at night and cry and have my 3 person pity party.  I'd give anything(except Tori) to have 1 hour with my son and my mother. Take them to a steeler game. Go sit in the park? Anything....nothing.
That's all I have to say about that.
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (4) | Permalink
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CHUCKLING...
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Jul 29, 2010 11:15am (EST)
You know I sit here and laugh and swear out loud, because 2 times in under 10 minutes I've managed to spill my coffee on my crossed pj legs and keyboard. Why am I laughing? 
GOOD MORNING MOD'ERS!!!
Well, Helmet head, or shall we call her brain incubator, Tori's head doesn't smell at all with these new holes in it. Interestingly enough, he took the majority of the padding out yesterday to let her head grow in all different directions now. Slightly exciting to me. No more stinky foot head.
Finally-RAIN! What a light show last night, it was like fireworks in the sky! Tori's first Crackle of Thunder that shocked/scared her enough to tears, and my husband saying to me "That's the first smile I've seen in a long time" When I say, "hurry honey, let's go look at the lighting before it rains!!" Shove Tori in her spin around chair, run outside(I don't run), stand in the front yard, starts to sprinkle then it was like niagra falls in the matter of seconds....
We run back inside(this time I ran), and I say "That was the stupidest idea I've had in a long time." Laughing as I said it. 
Love and light friends,
Liz
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Posted by liz loschinskey | Comments: (2) | Permalink
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BLAH...
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Jul 28, 2010 02:25pm (EST)
It's funny how others tend to wear off on you. I've been feeling the pain of an MOD'er here for a few days now, and I just want to hug her and watch mindless tv to keep her mind off of things.
With that, TMI, I know, I started my period yesterday which may explain my horrendous mood swings the past week or so, and the horrifying cramping earlier this month(hoping it was just ovulating). The extreme crying for no reason at all. Seriously, no reason at all. And the wanting to stay in bed all day and night.
I fired my shrink 2 weeks ago and started a new one yesterday. Oh I love her already. Her understanding, sympathy, and kindness, has built my trust already. We are going to start off with 1 week sessions untill I get this funk out of my system. I throw off this aura that I am this happy go lucky, GO TEAM person when in all reality....When I get inside my little pea brain, I'm not. I know exactly why. Self medicating is not the answer Liz. Not too many of you know this, After Mikey passed, I turned to alcohol and a dr, that fed me xanax like it was pez. In the meantime, I've done 6 months in rehab 30 days inpatient, the rest outpatient, and I've been sober since November of 06.
All of this stuff happens with Tori, every single emotion on Mikey comes flooding back in, even to this day, so I fired my old doc, for prescribing me benzo's again, when I specifically asked him not to, in fear of getting re addicted to them....which I saw coming, and I asked again, get me off the benzos, and he didn't. Piss off buddy.
In the meantime, I know why I'm depressed, why I'm down, why I can't handle stress, and extremely anxiety filled. I don't have a crutch. I don't have my alcohol, and I don't have my benzo's.(xanax and/or kalonopin) I have them, I'm just choosing not to take them. Actually I'm in the process of weaning myself. So with this, I've no crutches, And everything from my Mikey, 7 years ago, is flushing back through. Every Dr's appt, Every trip to Childrens of Pitts(Where Mikey died), Every EKG ,ECHO, pulmonary, eye doc, everything, that I have no control of, that I know I have to do for my daughter.
Jen had said a few days back about smelling all of Liams things. I tried last night, took Mikeys things out of his fireproof locked boxes and couldn't smell a thing. Noticed the blood splatters, his EG tube, his stickers *smiles* No smell tho.
I need to get myself together...PT at 10.45 and it's 10.24 and helmet appointment at 1pm.
Love and light people-
Liz
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