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MAKENZIE FAITH

May 05, 2012 04:01pm (EST)

Rough day yesterday... I needed to drive an hour away through heavy traffic to pay our rent since Jerry cant pay it from Kentucky, so i decided to just take care of it first an not stop by the hospital. I was on my way back when i get a call from her nurse saying she's had a rough day, her acid level in her blood was a little higher than usual. Which i was told could either be an infection somewhere or her lungs are not working properly.. And she was calling because they needed my permission to do a spinal tap!

i gave my permission, and i got the specifics of the procedure. As soon as i get off the phone my phone dies, it was my gps on how to get back to the hospital! And of course this happens during rush hour traffic on a 6 lane interstate! And i am not used to big city driving so i was freaking out times 10! I managed to find my way back, just as they were doing the spinal tap...
She did well, as she always does when they poke her. But spinal taps hurt for adults, i dont wanna think about it being done to her! It takes a couple days to get results back.. so i am anxiously waiting.. and they have stopped feeding her once again, but she did hit the 2 lb mark this morning!

Also the acid in her blood lowered some since last night, not enough but its the right direction..
Fingers are crossed right now..

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HOLDING MAKENZIE ;)

May 03, 2012 11:50pm (EST)

The nurses in the NICU are amazing, they really do their best to make me feel at home! My favorite of her nurses must of sensed my frustration and fear of being able to hold her but being too scared to... Yesterday morning when I arrived she informed me that I would be holding her today because they needed to change beds and it would be good for the both of us.. I was terrified, but my nurse was persistent and promised to be right there. So I held my baby girl yesterday for the first time.

First they had to unplug her ventilator and of course my heart was in my throat for those few seconds she was unplugged, but she took fast quick breaths on her own.
        Then they laid her on my chest and tucked a blanket around her, and taped all her wires an tubes to my shirt. My heart just swelled with love when I realized she was snuggled up to me! She is fiesty an has a little temper, but she hates being touched!! Lol so for her to snuggle was just huge to me!
          Unfortunatly though me and jerry are still off and on fighting... So the few minutes in the day that I can talk to him, are not great.. I know he's stressed so I let a lot go, but I really just ache for a hug...
         Makenzie is so tiny, but sometimes I think she is stronger than me. In spirit anyways..

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MAKENZIE FAITH

May 01, 2012 08:23pm (EST)

I am Makenzie Faith's mom. And I am making this blog because my daughter was born 16 weeks early. 1 lb. 11 oz.. very tiny and premature. Her father Jerry is away working. He is a roof salesman an travels a lot. Usually gone for a month at a time.. And he was just called away last night.. He'll be in Kentucky for the next 3 weeks.
         Today has been pretty rough, the stress of being away is getting to him and me as well, and we had a fight on the phone this morning. So right now I am missing him, mad at him, and all alone at the hospital.
         Makenzie has many health issues, but I am told she is lucky.. She has many issues with her lungs right now, a "PDA", and cant keep her body temp. stable..
         The nurses tell me I can hold her when I am ready, but she is just so tiny, that I'm scared... I am doing her oral care, but I'm scared to change her diapers... All the cords and tubes are right there, and you have to be carefull not to pull them, and it looks difficult..
         Anyway I am also writing this blog because it is not in my nature to tell people I am having a hard time.. Its my nature to be strong, and hold everything in until i'm alone.. But I am realizing I cant do that forever.. I need to talk to people about everything.. But I think strangers that are going through the same thing would be best. I cant have pitying eyes, or people watching me like a hawk looking for signs of depression..
         So feel free to comment and tell me your story too. I would appreciate it a great deal!

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