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TRINITOS_MOMMY - 11:37am Mar 6, 2010 EST
Well I don’t even know were to begin, my name is Sandra and im 23yrs old.
I found out I was pregnant on Jan 2009! At the beginning I was really scared didn’t even know what to think I was afraid on what my family will think, how I was going to be able to support my baby! All this things running in my mind, and I just didn’t know what to do! One thinks for sure I was glad to have my boyfriends support. Not once did I ever thing of abortion. Even if my pregnancy wasn’t plan I knew I will keep it and love it. And give my baby all I could. When I was 10weeks pregnant I was really sick, I didn’t eat for 3weeks, because everything that when in will go out in less than one min. I couldn’t even tolerate water, I ended up at the hospital, that’s when I found out I had slush on gallbladder, Thank god It didn’t effect my baby. When I was four months i when to my ultrasound visit, that was the day I was going to find out If I was having a boy or a girl. Little did I know I was also going to get bad news on the doc visit? I found out that my second trimester test came out BAD. That means that something was going to be wrong with my baby. That he was either going to have birth defect or back problems. I was already ready to die when I heard the news. At the end of the app the doctor told us we were having a baby boy. Everyone in the room was crying it was the best news ever. I already knew his name just like his daddy (Jose Trinidad Jauregui IV). I was really scared and worry to see what was wrong with him I will go to the my ultrasounds every week, which to me was really good cuz I got to see my angel all the time. It was a plus =)
I when to an app on June 18th, and he had to have a heart ultrasound and brain. At the end of the app the doctor said he look really good and he didn’t think something was wrong. I was the happiest mommy ever. On June 21st I when to have breakfast with my family and just relax at home because it was fathers day! Everything when well until night time I was on my way to the movies with my boyfriend and when I was in the car I felt a sharp pain like a kick but it was really hard. And than for some reason I touch my shorts and found out I was bleeding a lot. I had stain the whole car, we panic didn’t even know what to do. We were like 20 mins away from the hospital we made it we when to the labor and delivery room, and just waited right there to see what the doctor will say.
He did an ultrasound and told me my placenta had pop already so he need it to take out my soon a soon as possible. I was a mess I didn’t want to have him cuz I was only 28 weeks, and I knew he was way too early. But I had too, my son was born June 22nd at 12:51am he was 2pounds =)
I was on the recovery and didn’t hear anything for hours I didn’t know what was happening. My boyfriend send me a pix of my baby boy and he was the cutest baby ever, I was in love. I was really upset because I didn’t get to see him until 5pm the day. I didn’t know what to do or think when I saw him, he was so small and had all this machines on him it just broke my heart. But deep inside I knew he was going to be okay and come home soon! As days pass by my son was getting better taking all his feedings doing everything on his own, he hated his oxygen machine he will always pull it off his nose.
When he turn one month he was already 4pounds and was really big. We were so sure he was going to come home soon, there was time that I will look at him and think if he was going to make it out of there. And I will stop and try to take those thoughts out of my mind. Little did I know our lives were going to change. He got really sick one night and he had to have surgery. I was really scared but I was praying and hoping for the best. When he was done wit surgery the doctor said everything when fine. But I didn’t he was purple and look really sick. He couldn’t take the medicine I don’t think it help him at all. Because we got a call from the hospital asking us if we wanted to be with him on his last min. never in life did I think I will deal with a call like this. But we were there with him I knew he was in a lot of pain and I knew he was leaving us to go to a better place, but I didn’t want to accept it, I was not ready to let my son go!
He pass on July 26th 2009! I held him and was singing to him just like I always did. He is in a better place now. R.I.P BABY BOY!! I will always love u and miss u! We will always be together baby.
Well I don’t even know were to begin, my name is Sandra and im 23yrs old.
I found out I was pregnant on Jan 2009! At the beginning I was really scared didn’t even know what to think I was afraid on what my family will think, how I was going to be able to support my baby! All this things running in my mind, and I just didn’t know what to do! One thinks for sure I was glad to have my boyfriends support. Not once did I ever thing of abortion. Even if my pregnancy wasn’t plan I knew I will keep it and love it. And give my baby all I could. When I was 10weeks pregnant I was really sick, I didn’t eat for 3weeks, because everything that when in will go out in less than one min. I couldn’t even tolerate water, I ended up at the hospital, that’s when I found out I had slush on gallbladder, Thank god It didn’t effect my baby. When I was four months i when to my ultrasound visit, that was the day I was going to find out If I was having a boy or a girl. Little did I know I was also going to get bad news on the doc visit? I found out that my second trimester test came out BAD. That means that something was going to be wrong with my baby. That he was either going to have birth defect or back problems. I was already ready to die when I heard the news. At the end of the app the doctor told us we were having a baby boy. Everyone in the room was crying it was the best news ever. I already knew his name just like his daddy (Jose Trinidad Jauregui IV). I was really scared and worry to see what was wrong with him I will go to the my ultrasounds every week, which to me was really good cuz I got to see my angel all the time. It was a plus =)
I when to an app on June 18th, and he had to have a heart ultrasound and brain. At the end of the app the doctor said he look really good and he didn’t think something was wrong. I was the happiest mommy ever. On June 21st I when to have breakfast with my family and just relax at home because it was fathers day! Everything when well until night time I was on my way to the movies with my boyfriend and when I was in the car I felt a sharp pain like a kick but it was really hard. And than for some reason I touch my shorts and found out I was bleeding a lot. I had stain the whole car, we panic didn’t even know what to do. We were like 20 mins away from the hospital we made it we when to the labor and delivery room, and just waited right there to see what the doctor will say.
He did an ultrasound and told me my placenta had pop already so he need it to take out my soon a soon as possible. I was a mess I didn’t want to have him cuz I was only 28 weeks, and I knew he was way too early. But I had too, my son was born June 22nd at 12:51am he was 2pounds =)
I was on the recovery and didn’t hear anything for hours I didn’t know what was happening. My boyfriend send me a pix of my baby boy and he was the cutest baby ever, I was in love. I was really upset because I didn’t get to see him until 5pm the day. I didn’t know what to do or think when I saw him, he was so small and had all this machines on him it just broke my heart. But deep inside I knew he was going to be okay and come home soon! As days pass by my son was getting better taking all his feedings doing everything on his own, he hated his oxygen machine he will always pull it off his nose.
When he turn one month he was already 4pounds and was really big. We were so sure he was going to come home soon, there was time that I will look at him and think if he was going to make it out of there. And I will stop and try to take those thoughts out of my mind. Little did I know our lives were going to change. He got really sick one night and he had to have surgery. I was really scared but I was praying and hoping for the best. When he was done wit surgery the doctor said everything when fine. But I didn’t he was purple and look really sick. He couldn’t take the medicine I don’t think it help him at all. Because we got a call from the hospital asking us if we wanted to be with him on his last min. never in life did I think I will deal with a call like this. But we were there with him I knew he was in a lot of pain and I knew he was leaving us to go to a better place, but I didn’t want to accept it, I was not ready to let my son go!
He pass on July 26th 2009! I held him and was singing to him just like I always did. He is in a better place now. R.I.P BABY BOY!! I will always love u and miss u! We will always be together baby.
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